I really have no idea why things turn out this way...

Everything is in a mess.

It was fine for the past few weeks..

Audrey's attitude towards me seemed better a whole lot.. And I really mean a whole lot. When Jiaru and Hweeli were busy practisin their lion and I was practically loitering ard, she was willin to teach me tips on being the lion head.. And she was really patient.. Nv even shout at me at all..

Then when we(Hweeli, Jiaru, Audrey and me) all go with WeiJin see the competition that time.. Jiaru and Hweeli went to the coffeeshop opposite, I was seriously bored to tears lo.. Audrey was willin to go walk ard and even go sit at the playground with me...

I mean in the past, this is like.. so impossible??

Though I still feel weird when I talk and joke with her, I tink she's quite sincere liao lo..

But maybe she doesn know how to express herself..? That's why she keeps quarrellin with Hweeli?

Haiz.. but now, I tink she also pissed off with me le..

Cos actually the Racial Harmony drum performance, I was standin at the last row.. and she was standin in front mah..

Then when Coach came, he changed me and Audrey's position..

=(

I really didn mean to snatch the limelight or anything... seriously...

But I guess, she doesn feel it's fair bah..

I mean.. Ya la, if this happens to me, I wun feel good too la..

And I did ask Ah bao if I can change back to the last row, but he say cannot liao...

I really just wan peace lo..

And I thought everything was alright liao..

But after Coach changed our positions, she seems to hate me again..

Things just cant get better isnt it??

Haiz..

I just feel tt everyone has a part to play...

I dun agree it's entirely Hweeli's fault tt we have come to this.. Neither is it Audrey..

It's not up to Hweeli who plays the lion head lo.. seriously.. I mean, if she's appointed to be, she cant just reject and say she should not be rite?

But then again, it's quite natural for Audrey to feel tt this whole matter is unfair.. Maybe she cant control herself well enough.. and perhaps that's why she just walked off during the meetin..

I wanna help.. but I dunno where to help lo..

Helpin Audrey to explain matters will be like Im a betrayer.. cos no matter wad, Hweeli and Jiaru they all closer to me mah..

But standin on Hweeli's side is like we whole group bully Audrey like that..

I mean, if Audrey is reluctant to hear wad Hweeli has to say, I cant do anything..

I tink Audrey doesn really mean harm, but if this goes on...

Haiz.. nothing good is gonna come out of this..

4:49 AM